I've got so many emotions and thoughts tumbling around in my mind. In one minute my mood can change from ecstatic to desolate to reminiscent to hopeful, and just about a million other feelings.
I feel like I have my heart open for anyone to come and find their way inside. If a someone needs a friend, I'm ready and willing to be that shoulder to cry on or person to share that laugh with. But it seems like everyone is pulling away or leaving me behind.
I guess it's all part of growing up. Sometimes you need to just go it alone, right? Don't get me wrong - I'm not complaining about being alone. I love Heather time. Those minutes, hours, days I spend by myself help me to reflect, focus, nurture and guide myself in the directions I want to take in my life. Thinking back on where I've been and looking forward to where I am going, while enjoying where I am right now, probably one of the most exciting (and moderately terrifying) things I've ever experienced.
I just wish my friends would be more hands on. I'm almost 24 - and though this time is so invigorating, it would be so much more enjoyable with some of my best friends by my side.
C'est la vie.
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